If I had the choice, I wish that I could've changed charges before it was too late. I yearn for the time where I never looked for the half that would make me whole. It's simple to attach but it always takes that extra effort to pull two th…

As the things we used to know come to an end, and the unknown comes about, history tells us to be scared. Fear the worst because no one truly knows what will become of you. The terrible things that life is known to do in seconds suddenly s…

Trapping myself in all directions. The flame I used to have waning into me, charring any of the cruelty that was spat at me. I look into myself and I see a world of hurt, relentless lashes to the heart that never got the chance to see the …

An old movie became me. All of the things that I remember with such strong nostalgia leave their marks in me no matter where I turn. The people that I fell for and never quite got back up from. When I see the girl that I will never be, but…

The things that we never need always seem to stay with us the longest. Parts of the body that just always seem to be there all of a sudden aren't. Subtle as it leaves, the spark that kept you lively fades into a distance to a point where i…

From my cold, dead fingers because I know that there's no more blood to flow through. As my heart keeps on trying, I can never hold any of it down. All of my fears flow through with all of the red that I see leave me. All of me is always c…

I wonder what I would be like if I could stop repressing all of the things that matter. As I'm open to some I feel it's too much that I share, and when I'm alone, I feel everything bubble up, and once I show a bit I end up revealing everyt…

I feel myself pushing everyone away. I didn't think too many people would notice. A disappointing thing is that I was right. My voice shrinks back, away from all of the chatter chasing after me, and into all of the things that I can't talk…

Two breaths in, I don't feel either of them leave. The longer I go on, the shakier I get. To make the mind stationary is a control freak's lullaby. As much as I longed for control, knowing it was impossible, I continue trying to get my int…

When she was done with her carriage, there lie a pumpkin. But, for that one night, she could feel important and beautiful. It's a remarkable thing when the nicest things pass, and all that is left is the now. Sometimes, the past sems like …

It's hard to draw yourself when you have no idea who you are. People go so long doing the same things, but there always comes a time where everything becomes a single motion. After doing that for so long, I have no idea where I stand anymo…

I wonder what it would be like to wake up as a nicer person. Kindness seeping out of every pore. A normalcy that was never meant to exist persisting in a strange fashion because I know that I've only looked like a kind person as an attempt…

Sometimes, I think it'd be really useful, if I had a book that could tell me everything that I was. Society will always tell you that you're different, but that you're beautiful. If the outer quotations of society were correct, people woul…

I look at the old naive photos. Study them intently. And I realize something profound. I know all of the things that you were are the things that you always will be. Your hair is frozen in the frizzy locks that you didn't care to change. Y…

If you've taken half of me, know that you've taken all of me. For I cannot give you anymore than what I am. Though I don't have much, I can search for the rest... But I'm not quite sure that I had anything in me to begin with. I want to ch…

People are aware of the things that show up clear in their eyes. But not everyone is that same way. I poured my heart out to you, thinking that this would make you aware. Aware that I'm worthy of affection, attention, or at the least, ackn…

Never have I trusted an initial feeling. I never know what I love until I've hated it. I'll never value it until I can no longer have it. Never has anything been instantly clear. Many times, I start out hating things because I don't exactl…

Having to act like everything's normal proves to be difficult. Especially when it seems that I'm the only one who thinks anything is wrong. It seems sad that people would even have to consider resorting to such petty acts. Avoiding one's e…

I'll hand you a bucket full of lies and you would think it was one drop of truth because you didn't look closely enough. I'm sure that you feel better- but at the same time, I wonder if it really mattered. I'm sure there's a way that I can…

I wish that I could be in someone else's shoes for once. Society calls us the most grotesque things, and then expects us to see ourselves as perfect. I wish that I could be the one person that you thought was perfect. That one girl that yo…

I wish there was book to tell you how to feel. How to comletely fit in. To be whatever someone wants. To understand something without getting hurt by it. To let someone understand you. How to let people in without getting too close and hav…

Words seem to mean less to the people who you want them to mean the most to. I can tell you all of the constant pain that I feel. Or the fact that I have no idea what to do about any of it. And if it's truly all or nothing, I can't say any…

As her icy heart defrosts, you see it ice back up. Like a hand recoiling to your touch. Things are so much easier when there are no walls. To melt the ice that dwells within, that was the goal. But the cold icicles are dug in too deep like…

Don't ask a question unless you are fully prepared for the answer. You asked me what I was fed up with ? I'm fed up with being un-noticed. I'm fed up with being undermined because I am not someone else. I'm fed up with the hollow feeling i…

If I could give my heart a mind, I know what it would think of you. If I could give my soul vocal chords and a mouth, I know what it would tell you. After I was done, you would know who I was, and you would know how I felt. After I was don…

To a girl that I no longer recognize, I finally know why. And I'm finally ready to let you go. You were scared and helpless and weak. You thought you were wretched and hopless and hard to love. And you were. Because you thought you were. B…

You tell yourself that everything is as it was the day before. Nothing out of the ordinary was happening. But in the night, sharpen your teeth, because what you thought was the apple of your eye once, will rot faster than worms come out of…

Disclaimer- No, I'm not scitzophrenic. This is just how I am sometimes. There are five different people in my head at once. There's the one that makes my heart race around people that I want to be calm around. It makes everything stop and …

Where the sand stops, there is a whole new world at large. Everything collides. The body mass of water rages with collision. Nothing is its own. Right down to cells, everything is a conversion. I let it take me in, give into the powerful w…

As I'm tossing in my sheets, I feel the thoughts that still plague at me. My problem tonight is that I leave everything unresolved. It's all broken apart and the wrongness of it all is seeping into me. I always feel so hopeless in the sola…