How to Play it off.

Have you ever had to mask it?

That loging for which

you cannot have?

I do it everyday.

In my heart, 

I know that it is not "okay" or "alright".

But my mind knows better. 

That the longning is temporary.

That maybe in my heart exists a cold that I can't shake.

Not thinking abt the day that I will finally say that 

I can't.

Acting as though the whispers of pain aren't there.

Seeping their way through the cracks in pavement.

That I don't scream when I try to supress it.

The cover of a book with a flawless title and 

yet you open it and 

there are a million slivers that 

no one had the patience to fix.

The words are legible but you don't like them. 

So you reject it.

Leaving me just as broken as before

if not more.

And so in response I ruin the rest of me. 

This way no one can do that to me again. 

I now look the way I am... not. 

You see the smile, a girl who tries too hard. 

You see the eyes, not the horror behind them. 

This is how to play it off as though you're okay. 

This is how you play it off to become someone else. 

Human Dignty + Compassion = Peace.