Distance.

There are plenty of times when

I distance myself from other people.

Other people bring pain.

They're not all bad people,

I just get tempted to trust them.

And when I do,

they turn awful.

Using betrayal as the knife that slices my heart.

It becomes tiring,

so many cuts. 

I continue to ask,

"What if I don't make it through this one?"

Eventually, I gave up. 

Misery loves company,

but I'd rather be alone.

Winter puts up a good front; 

all the cold winds,

blinding white snow,

literally icing people out.

It's easy to turn cold,

especially when warmth becomes a flaming hot poker in your chest.

When I was a small teenager, 

I learned to appreciate what the cold, 

harsh,

Winter gave me.

It gave me a sense of warmth.

Throughout the rest of the seasons, 

My heart remains an icy block,

But the physical cold I get

makes my heart seem warm in comparison.

Though Winter has such a cold

whiplash to it, 

it takes distance out of the equation.

Warm hearts depend on each other in the Winter 

because their bodies can't take the cold.

I can now appreciate the cold.

It makes me feel human. 

Not totally un-feeling.

But now I can keep my distance.

And not miss it.

Not miss the pain, 

suffering,

confusion,

or the apolgies made.

 No one needs any of that.

It's easier to be alone and keep a good distance from people. 

People bring too many unknown feeling astir.

Distance is the delicate barrier between 

Feeling too much,

And feeling nothing.

Human Dignity + Compassion = Peace.